{"id":54,"date":"2020-08-24T08:07:15","date_gmt":"2020-08-24T08:07:15","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/nikkijackmanjoy.com\/new\/index.php\/about\/"},"modified":"2025-03-14T01:52:40","modified_gmt":"2025-03-14T01:52:40","slug":"about","status":"publish","type":"page","link":"https:\/\/nikkijackmanjoy.com\/index.php\/about\/","title":{"rendered":"GOODBYE CHARITY HEAD CASE"},"content":{"rendered":"\t\t
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A NEW STORY BEGINS\u2026<\/p>

This month 19 years ago this article came out \u2013 with the headline\u00a0\u201cex soapie star becomes a charity headcase\u201d<\/a>\u00a0<\/em><\/strong>(link click-able and safe to read) and indeed this is what I became.<\/p>

Now I am in the gigantic process of ending this charity head case cycle.<\/p><\/div><\/div>\n <\/section>\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t

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It sounded cute when I was in my late 20\u2019s, now, admittedly on the edge of 5 decades (holy trucking moly \u2013 did I just say that), I did indeed; I\u2019m not cowering away from celebrating that this being \u2013 me, Nicola Ann Jackman, born 29th August 1974 \u2013 is in her last two years of 5 decades.<\/p>

The sneak peak of my story, the little more detail which I seek to share right now \u2013 is this one from my birthday month in 2003.<\/p>

I\u2019d just left the role of \u201cElise Buller\u201d (the girl-next door character I played from episode 1 in Isidingo). For three years I played this role and the role of (what I thought was) celebrity in South Africa.
Let\u2019s just say \u2013 I definitely dived deeply into the ego.
Quick pause, for an inspiring quote that lingers, longing to be shared\u2026<\/p>

\u201cThe first half of life is devoted to forming a healthy ego, the second half is going inward and letting go of it.\u201d<\/p>Carl Jung<\/cite><\/blockquote>

Now around the time of this article (linked above), I had just come through one of the biggest shift\u2019s of my life.<\/p>

I had just had a miscarriage. Thank God \u2013 not a human death, but honestly a very painful loss nonetheless. I\u2019d experienced a business venture epically fail. I was left psychologically shattered and furthermore a wonderful 180 thousand rands worth of debt.<\/p>

I had left the local South African soap-opera \u201cIsidingo\u201d, intent on trying my hand at producing. I had spent a year and all my savings and made a pilot of a travel program. Failing to find funding, or a distributor, for what I can now see was for my first ever Reality TV show format, I was thrown deep into a dark and dismal place.<\/p>

Worth noting that even actors don\u2019t act so well, when they\u2019re depressed, as that despair leaks into all your characters.<\/p>

So this \u201ccharity head case\u201d article in 2003 \u2013 was a relaunch of me \u2013 so to speak. I was following a deep calling in me, \u201c That if I serve humanity, I\u2019ll rise again\u201d.<\/p>

Let\u2019s be clear. The great self-loathing despair, for not succeeding with my dream \u2013 was still present. I recall some epic drool cries, you know where you cry so hard that you just don\u2019t care if saliva and snot pour out of you, alongside the rivers of tears, in my apartment without furniture.<\/p>

So yes, I can own it, quite selfishly, I felt a spark of light. What if I could put my troubles aside, for even a little \u2013 once a week and show up with joy \u2013 for those that actually have even more need than me.<\/p>

And there it was. I launched myself around the time of my crown birthday, and became a charity head-case and shortly after The\u00a0UPliftment Programme<\/a>\u00a0(the UP \u2013 like UP \u2013 not down) was born.<\/p>

Every week, sometimes twice a week, I\u2019d throw all my troubles aside, and show up with a little face paint, a giant heart and share joy with children in hospitals and homes. This evolved to training hundreds of others to do the same.<\/p>

Looking now at this uplifting 18 year old organisation, I feel a bit like a proud Mummy, deeply transformed by this extraordinary child\u2019s life.<\/p>

So I guess as The UP has come of age, so have I and so once again in my Birthday month, 19 years later \u2013 I am publicly re-birthing myself again.<\/p>

This time I\u2019m redefining myself \u2013 with immense gratitude for all the learnings, I am releasing the charity head case model and becoming a thriving Impact Producer, with a heart for philanthropy.<\/p>

Watch this space\u2026 and thanks for the sUPport!!!<\/p>

See how far we\u2019ve come with\u00a0The UP here.<\/a><\/p><\/div><\/div>\n <\/section>\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t

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